Showing posts with label Varanasi. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Varanasi. Show all posts

Friday, July 23, 2010

Videos!

I finally figured out how to add videos to this thing.  Turns out it's ridiculously easy, and for the first time ever I had to have a student show me how to do something online.  That officially makes me old; it's all downhill from here.

Anyway, here they are in chronological order and with a short description below.  Enjoy!

New Delhi:
The view from the bus I took across the southern section of the city.  This is what I was referring to when I said the city was in a constant, unidentifiable state of either being rebuilt or falling apart.  Notice the bus doesn't so much stop as slow down to a non-lethal speed to jump at.
Four girls and my giant packed crammed into a touk-touk to go into town from our hostel.  How that thing moved with all of us plus the driver and his friend is beyond me, but it was a bumpin' ride.
And this is how Delhi said goodbye.  I was walking down the road from my hostel to the train station and almost couldn't get through the cows, the people, the band...it was hilarious.

Amritsar:
A quick tour of the Golden Temple, the holiest site for all Sikhs.
All of these videos show different parts of the border closing ceremony between India and Pakistan. I sat on the Indian side (obviously), so you have to look closely to see the Pakistani guards dressed in black. It must be just about the only thing to do for entertainment in this area because there was a huge crowd and they were all natives! A lot of fun, even if I had no idea what the cheers said.
This is back in the Golden Temple.  Every evening they take the copy of the scriptures, a massive book about 3' by 2' that they believe is the several-hundred year-old original version, from its place in the main temple to a secure chamber in another building.  But not to worry, there are priests reading other copies 24 hours a day, so you can get your canonical fix, even at 3am.

Rishikesh:
Swimming in the Ganges, in the winter, close to its glacial source.  Really not disgustingly dirty here (that would come later in Varanasi), just cold!
Bhavesh, my Indian brother, totally wimps out on his chance to swim

Varanasi:
The view from our boat on the Ganges (absolutely disgustingly filthy in this location, bodies and all) of the evening Pooja.  The priests honored their 'Mother' river.

Udaipur:
Another poorly shot video from the handlebars of my motorbike and again not the crazy/dangerous part of the ride, but I don't need anything else distracting me on the roads when it's that busy.

Jodhpur:
A little music to get us in the mood for touring Jodhpur Fort.

Jaisalmer:
An odd scene on the streets of Jaisalmer.  I really don't know exactly what was going on here.

Agra:
Whatever this was rehersal for, it kicked off at about 11pm.  I almost got locked out of my hostel because I stayed out to watch it.

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Don't make me tell Lonely Planet on you...

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What a crappy, crappy start to the day. Worst morning yet. First of all, the sun doesn’t really rise here. Instead, the haze changes colors from grey to purple to pink to bluish. You don’t actually see the sun until it’s about quarter of the way through the sky already. Less than majestic. Then I woke up ten minutes late and missed the free morning boat ride that I have been wanting to go on. I would get into how badly breakfast went, but I’ll save myself the time and just post a copy of my letter to Lonely Planet later. But then again, without missing the boat and getting that crappy breakfast I wouldn’t have met Marc, this cute Australian guy who might meet up with me in Udaipur. Hmm…


I decide to take one last walk around through the alleys of Godawlia to see some of the sights I didn’t have time for yesterday. Jnana Vapi mosque appears to be closest on my map, but it’s pretty difficult to find and I learn it’s closed to non-Muslims when I finally do arrive. All right, I guess I’ll try to go to the Golden Temple next. Finding that is really easy, but there are no bags or cameras allowed inside. Next. The Kama Sutra temple that Emma and Sally said they liked is either a lot less impressive to me or I’ve gone to the wrong place. Well, I guess I can say I tried.

It’s time to go back to the hotel, anyway, because I need to print my train ticket and check out. The internet is working (a small miracle), but when I look at my ticket my stomach drops into my feet: I booked it for yesterday. What an idiot. I thought still in Rishikesh I had changed all of my tickets up until Khajuraho; clearly not. Well, I’m packed and checked out already, so I guess I’ll just go to the train station and see what can be done about it.

I hop into the first cycle rickshaw that comes along and immediately regret it. This guy is old and slow. Traffic is a mess, but he seems content to simply wait in line behind everyone else rather than weave his way in and out of the cars like other drivers I’ve had tend to do. I had hoped to try to transfer my ticket to the train leaving at the same time today, but I get to the station ten minutes after it’s left. Although, apparently I can buy a ticket to the “open seating” car (basically first come first serve) on the train leaving in half an hour. Can’t wait.

Oh my days, this is chaos. I am congratulating myself for keeping calm while surrounded by 18 men (4 of whom are sitting on the luggage rack above me) in a 5’ by 10’ space. I’m guessing they speak a couple hundred words of English and are missing about 20 teeth between them. Also, our train has just reversed directions and I’m not sure if we’re headed back where we came from or are going a new route. It’s about 85 degrees in here and smells. A man just finished playing a snake charmer’s flute and is now yelling for donations. Everyone is coughing and hacking, making it seem like we’re a train full of TB patients headed for treatment. None of my cabinmates seems to have brought anything to do on our six-hour train ride and I think they’re staring at me to pass the time.

So I congratulate myself for staying calm. I think I’d be more nervous if I weren’t meeting up with Laura. It’s nice to know I’ve got someone I can call to help me figure out how to get to Khajuraho. She got there earlier today and found a guest house run by nice people who are even willing to pick me up from the bus stand (my train doesn’t go all the way to Kho so I’m taking a 3 hour bus ride to get closer).

A couple hours later, though, I realize I’ve completely misjudged the people around me. When I ask one of them how much further to Satna, he asks me some questions of his own as best as he can with his limited English (including, of course, whether I’m traveling alone and why such a pretty lady doesn’t have a man to protect her. ‘Because this pretty lady can protect herself’, I think). The other guys must have questions, too, because periodically they say things to him in Hindi and he turns to me to ask another question. Right before I get off the train he says he is very happy because he has a new sister and that I can say I have an Indian brother. Everyone makes sure I get off at the right station, have my bag and am not jostled by the other passengers. My new ‘brothers’ were pretty good to me and I’m sorry to have been so hasty to judge them.

After being told by the tourist office at the station and a few rickshaw drivers that there are no more buses going to Khajuraho tonight so I should go to this fabulous Rs2000 hotel, I decide to go to the station anyway, just to have a little look around. Fifteen minutes later I’m bouncing down the road to Kho and trying to ignore how closely the bus driver gets to the cars coming from the opposite direction. I end up with a creepy guy who likes to lean into me for a neighbor, and when pretending to sleep doesn’t deter him a fake one-hour call to my fake boyfriend does the trick. Fortunately, Rahim from Laura’s hotel is there to pick me up as soon as I step off the bus and twenty minutes later I’m in Kho.

Rakshana guesthouse is pretty homely, but my room is big and I have my own bathroom (which I never end up using because it kind of scares me). Right before I go to bed I find out this is where the owner typically sleeps and that he’s giving it to me because the other rooms are taken. At midnight, beggars can’t be choosers, so I kill about a dozen mosquitoes, slather on bug spray, cover up any free skin I can find and pass out. My last thought: at least I made it here; that’s all that matters.

Dear Lonely Planet,

I want to share my recent experience at Shanti Guest House in Varanasi, India, which I stayed at based on your recommendation. I walked in and asked for a single room for two nights and paid Rs200 up front. The man at the reception desk couldn’t be less enthused by my arrival and they seemed to tolerate my business at best. I didn’t hear a single ‘welcome’ or ‘thank you’ during my entire 3 day stay. The room was fine, but without sheets or a blanket. Also, this was the noisiest place I’ve stayed in all of India; my very first night I couldn’t fall asleep until 1 because of people talking, doors slamming and music playing.

All of that is bearable, though; my biggest problems are with the rooftop restaurant. Oh, where to begin. The extremely mediocre food? Lack of cleanliness? Utterly horrible service? Let’s start with the fact that it’s not actually open ’24 hours’, like it claims. I went up for breakfast at 6:15 one day. A man was watching TV, but when he saw me, apparently his first customer of the day, he switched it off, walked towards me, ignored my hello, flipped a light switch and went into the kitchen. Thirty minutes later two other hapless customers wandered in and the three of us proceeded to knock on the kitchen door. The man I saw said the restaurant would be open in five minutes. Ten minutes later he came and took the other customers’ orders. Ten minutes after that I walked up and asked to order food; he gave me a pad of paper and told me to write it down myself (which I had to do twice after apparently writing in the wrong, but identical, box).

My two friends had joined me by this point and we all ordered toast, theirs with fried eggs, and chai. Fifteen minutes later, our chai arrived (by this point the other customers had their food already). Another ten minutes later, one friend got her toast and eggs. I got my plain toast five minutes after that and a whopping thirty minutes after ordering (and 2 inquisitive trips to the kitchen) my other friend got her food. The eggs were so undercooked she couldn’t bear to eat them so she went without breakfast. Ninety minutes after arriving, I finished my meal and left.

This scenario was pretty typical, unfortunately, and through my personal experience and overhearing other customers I can tell you they didn’t even bring out 7 orders in just the 3 meals I ate there. The customers either left or ordered again, only to wait another thirty minutes to get their food. The workers’ only responses were rolled eyes, sighs and nasty comments; one even snatched my friend’s utensils out of her hand because she “took the wrong one” from the tray she’d been forced to fetch them from herself.

On to cleanliness. As we ate the breakfast described above, they moved us to another table so they could finally clean up the mess from the night before. A man hosed down the floors, pushing water and garbage around with a whisk broom, then did the same to the tables. To our horror, though, he didn’t use a different broom to clean the tables, just the same one he’d been cleaning the sticky, disgusting floors with. He then proceeded to chuck the garbage over the edge of the building (although, this is probably a normal practice).

Overall, the people at Shanti really couldn’t have cared less if we were there, let alone happy. Recommend the accommodations if you must, but I hope you’ll stop featuring their restaurant. I haven’t been this disappointed in anything in your book as with their café and I hope you’ll be able to note this in the future.

Sincerely,

Lauren Montgomery

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

I think I saw the best side of Varanasi

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Argh! Mosquitos! I’m going to have to buy some coils to burn in my room and start wearing my repellent regularly. By the end of the day I had a bite on my ankle and two on my chin (huh?). I guess I’m back into insect country.

I roll out onto the ghats around ten and start by walking south. I’m not sure why, but I’m still surprised by how hazy and smoggy it is in India. Every day I walk out of my hotel and can only see an outline of the buildings down the way. There’s only one way to describe the ghats of Varanasi: stairs, stairs, stairs and more stairs. Hundreds of them. Stretching for kilometers. I will have thighs of steel by the end of the day, especially if I continue to patronize my hotel’s rooftop restaurant.


It seems a bit quiet; not too many people are out and about and a fair number of those who are are tourists. You can’t really tell how polluted the river is as you walk along the ghats, but I’ve heard that this is one of the most heavily polluted stretches of water in the world. I can believe it after having heard what people use the river for: garbage dump; laundromat; burial ground (one person saw the corpse of a baby floating along after it came untied from the rock that held it on the river bottom); bathtub; bathroom; industrial waste storage; baptismal font; etc etc.



The buildings that run along my right all look like they used to be 18th century palaces that were allowed to fall into disrepair. The grandest has been turned into an observatory, but the others now seem to be shoddy guesthouses, stores or homes for several families. They didn’t skimp on paint, though, and the color palette is a multitude of colors that seem like they should clash, but never do. The other side of the river looks like a wasteland; no trees or buildings in site, just a barren stretch of beach as far as the eye can see. Someone explains to me later that it used to be covered in trees, but the citizens of Varanasi have long since cut them all down to use as firewood for their cremations.



Even though it’s fairly quiet, there’s still a hum of activity everywhere you walk: Kids skip up and down the river, flying kites made of sheets of crinkly, colored plastic. Women beat laundry with a stick. Men bob up and down in the water. Cows, dogs, goats and people loll in the sunshine. Ayurvedic masseuses call out for customers from their wooden chairs. A snake charmer starts a pair of cobras dancing with his pipe. A hundred men ask me, “Boat madam? Very good price. Just 100 rupees for one hour.” Groups of boys somehow manage to play games of cricket without the river swallowing their ball.







This morning, though, I simply want to be an observer, so I turn down all offers of boats and requests to stop into stores. I make my way as far south as I can go, to a large and very attractive-looking park. As I round the corner and follow the path on the other side, however, a nauseating sight and smell present themselves: it’s a river of grey sludge cutting a valley through mountains of garbage. I wish I could say I was exaggerating. This is absolutely the most disgusting thing my senses have ever had to cope with. There must be decades of filth built up in this ravine and I start to get emotional again over how little pride Indian people appear to have in their environment. If I could change anything about this country, it would be how the people dispose of their waste.

I rush down the path to the main entrance of the park as quickly as I can, intending to go in and get out of the building heat. The smell drives me on, though, looking for a café I can go into to have a cool drink away from what I’ve just seen. At this point, I see a sign with a name on it that I recognize: Open Hand Textile Shop and Café. The guidebook recommended it as a place to get fair-price and fair-practice garments and home goods. I had been meaning to check it out, anyway, so I stop in, get some tea and start shopping.

An hour later I walk out with a hunter green and deep purple scarf, a bright blue and red silk shawl, and the piece de resistance: the most beautiful sari ever woven. It’s a bold purple that has a red sheen when the light hits it and is intricately embroidered with gold thread. It’s the single most expensive thing I’ve bought in India and I really have no idea how to put it on myself, but who cares? It’s one of the three most beautiful dresses I have ever worn in my life. The saleswoman sends me to her tailor to make me a custom-fitted Indian-style blouse from the extra fabric on the sari. Salim is a wonderful man who agrees to rush and finish it tonight for no extra charge.

Oh, my god. I can’t stop smiling. This is fabulous!! I’m not sure when I would really wear it outside of Halloween, but maybe I’ll get really lucky and be invited to an Indian wedding in Singapore. Or maybe I should learn how to put it on and just wear it around my condo and feel glamorous.

I’m now walking back up towards the northern end of the ghats, passing some of the same people I saw before. A couple of children who speak excellent English trail alongside me trying very hard to get me to buy a small bowl with a flower and candle in it. At the evening aarti ceremony (much like the one performed in Rishikesh), you’re supposed to make a wish for your family’s health and prosperity and send it floating down the river. First they try to make me feel bad for not wanting to bless my family, but they change tactics when I tell them I have no money because I just went shopping. The little boy tells me not to lie because it’s bad for karma. I promise him, though, that if I had any money he would get it (eh, who needs karma, anyway?).  To their credit they don't ever believe me, but eventually they start tailing another tourist.


When I get back to the ghat near my hotel I keep walking and arrive at the famous Manikarnika Ghat: the burning ghat. This is where every Hindu family in India tries to bring their deceased relatives; by being cremated here they can automatically achieve moksha, release from the cycle of reincarnation and entrance into nirvana. The women are not allowed past a certain point because it’s assumed they will lose themselves to grief and throw themselves on the fire. The men in the family are required to shave all of their hair off and cannot cry or the deceased’s soul will be stuck in some kind of Hindu limbo. And of course the higher caste families have their own site on the ghat for cremation, a bit further in from the river.


There is a strict rule about who can be burnt here: only those who died of natural causes. The following must be burnt further south on the river at a smaller and less prestigious ghat: suicides, murders, accidental deaths, pregnant women, babies and children, the mentally challenged and anyone other than priests. The latter are considered holy in and of themselves and are typically just tied to a rock and thrown into a river. Actually, it would appear that you can dispose of anyone that way and I’ve heard several stories of people who saw a corpse that had apparently floated to the surface after the rope keeping it submerged broke.

Although I see several large fires and a couple of bodies wrapped in orange fabric being washed in the river, I don’t see anyone actually being cremated. Even though the ghat runs 24/7, it seems that this is a break and they won’t begin again until after I’ve arranged to meet with friends. I’m not sure if I’m disappointed, though, because I’m not sure if it’s something I want to see or not.

I decide to walk on to take in all of the ghats before I meet Sally and Emma for the evening boat ride put together by the hotel. As soon as you pass Manikarnika the number of people dwindles to almost nothing. There’s an impressive, but now short, steeple from a temple that fell into the water from its own weight 150 years ago (which the industrious Indians simply built around and continued with their daily lives). One ghat is painted aquamarine, another has a crude sculpture of someone lying down and another has Varansi’s largest mosque towering a hundred meters above it.

But now it’s time to get back to the hotel and get on the water. Emma, Sally and I are going to take them up on their free evening boat ride down the river and back. The sun has basically gone down already, but the sky still has the color of an old bruise to it, yellow and pink with hints of purple. Lots of other boats cruise by and several people start putting the little bowls with candles on the water. As it gets darker they look like glowing trail of breadcrumbs leading back towards our hotel.

As we near one of the ghats towards the south, I realize that it's one of the burning ghats.  This ghat is where the Manikarnikan 'rejects' are taken.  There's also a large electric crematorium so that poorer families can cremate their relatives for less money (paying for the wood for a burning costs a small fortune).  At night, it's a haunting scene; the fire turns everything into silhouettes, from the people walking around tending to the flames to the bodies sitting on them.  Photography really is strictly prohibited, but I turn my flash off and surreptitiously take a few shots that turn out to be some of my favorites from this entire trip.


Our oarsman tells us the names of the ghats and a lot of things I already know, but then offers to row us up close to the evening aarti ceremony that takes place on the river. He’ll charge us, of course, but he says he can get us in front of the other boats and provide snacks if we’d like. Sally and Emma are interested (I’ve seen this before, but I go where they go if I want company) so we glide in front of the five small tables set up for the five Brahmin priests who will use the objects on them to give to thanks to mother Ganga for her gifts.

It starts with a long, loud blast on conch shells and then the bells start. Bells above the ghat, in the crowd and held by the priests will ring nonstop for the entire 40-minute ceremony. To summarize what happens, the priests start by waving incense and canters in circles, then small flames, then bigger and bigger candelabras until they require two hands to hold. All of this is accompanied by one man on drums and another singing and playing the sitar. It ends with another blast on the conch and lots of throwing flowers into the river. The only thing that really holds my interest, since I’ve seen this before, is the priest who is standing right in front of our boat. He’s strikingly handsome and he moves his hands with more grace than I’ve seen in any dancer. I’m absolutely transfixed by his gestures and am impressed by the practice that must have gone into such perfect movements.


We return to the hotel all too soon, but our oarsman thinks it would be funny if we three girls took turns trying to row the boat. I think he wants to show us how “hard” it is to move the boat along the river (although he has been doing this for ten years now) so that we give him a sizable tip at the end. It’s a riot! Bamboo oars that are only held in place with ropes are definitely a bit harder than the oars on the crew boats at Michigan and the photos we take of each other easily show the effort involved. Eventually he says, “All right, please let me row again.” The unspoken message was definitely heard.

Oof, we’re beat, so we head up to the now-buzzing rooftop café to have some dinner. At one point I look over and think I recognize a guy at another table, and after about 10 minutes I realize it’s one of the South African guys I met in Amritsar! What a small friggin’ country! I sit down with the guys for a bit and we chat about where they’ve been, where they’re going, what they’ve seen…our path probably won’t overlap again after this, but to see the same people after traveling so far is incredibly cool.

As I go to bed I realize I’m pleasantly surprised by Varanasi. The guidebook said this was one of the most difficult cities for tourists to visit, but that it could be extremely rewarding if you’re able to get past all of the sources of stress and difficulty. Well, I guess I’ve managed to do that because I confess I’m a bit enchanted by this city and would stay another day if I had the time. It would be fun to spend more time getting lost in Godawlia and stumbling upon more of the temples that seem to jump out at you when you round the corner. I guess I stayed the perfect amount of time in Rishikesh; maybe some divine hand is guiding me through India after all…

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

The IRCTC can kiss my ass

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I have just finished the train ride from hell.  We arrive in Varanasi 2.5 hours after we were supposed to, bringing the total journey to just over 22 hours.  That is a very long time to sit/lie on a 1” thick foam mattress while the temperature in the cabin slowly increases up to an uncomfortable level.  The food is greasy, although I did eat one of the best hashbrowns I’ve ever had in my life—the secret is to add a bajillion types of spices.  When you use the bathroom you can see the tracks rushing directly underneath the toilet (a little bit of an air-dry, I guess).  Ninety percent of the passengers got off at 9am, leaving the train eerily quiet.  The rocking and shaking is so bad this trip that I can barely write what I see going past my window.  The whole experience blows.



Here’s what I can make-out from my notes at the end of the trip:
--50’ tall statue of Hanuman, the monkey god, is realllly creepy at night
--It’s getting brown again outside; more fields, fewer trees
--Hundreds of kilometers of subsistence farmers: ox-drawn carts and plows, small plots of crops in irregular triangles and quadrilaterals separated by small mounds of earth
--Women carry piles of hay bigger than themselves on their heads
--Grass and mud-brick huts with awnings held up by sticks
--Every twenty minutes or so we come to a “station”, a glorified strip of concrete where people jump (or if they’re lucky and the train actually stops) or step on and off the train
--Conductor stopping by to check on me every station and offering me some peanuts.  Nice, but I’m a woman, not an infant

I’m getting slightly anxious about finding a hotel, as well.  The tourist office that would have helped me make phone calls and arrange pick-ups closed an hour ago and the rickshaw drivers here are famous for trying to get you to go to a hotel they recommend (they earn up to a 75% commission from the establishment for the tourists they bring in, a fee added to your hotel bill).  A nice man on the train tries to call the hotels on my list, but neither of my top two choices pick up.  He’s convinced that I can just tell a rickshaw-wallah to take me to my hotel and they’ll treat me fairly.  It’s all I can do not to laugh out loud and teach him a lesson about his homeland.

But maybe meeting this guy is going to turn out to be even more useful than I thought.  As we exit the train, he deals with the rickshaw wallah for me and settles it in advance!  He gets a guy to agree to take me for a good price; I think I just found my new tactic for getting decent rickshaw rides.  Not that the driver goes out without trying to pull something…his “friends” start walking through the station with me, asking me all sorts of questions and guiding me through the crowd.  When we get in the rickshaw there are two drivers, neither of whom were the person my guardian from the train spoke with.  They immediately start talking about how difficult it is to get to the hotel I want and why don’t I pick another one and madam it’s dark out, you aren’t safe walking and the rickshaw can’t go in all the way to the hotel (which I already know is true and I’ll be fine) so it’s better if you choose something else…

But I stick to my guns and say Shanti Guest House or I get another ride.  Both drivers basically flee the vehicle and my original friend comes back.  He takes me as far as he can in the rickshaw then starts to lead me through the twisting, labyrinthine set of alleys that make up the old city neighborhood of Godawlia.  In the dark, this trek is mysterious and outright scary.  There were pitch-black stretches where the power was out, loose cobblestones would tilt up and try to trip you and men called out “Hello, ma-dam!  Welcome to our area of Varanasi!”  I can’t wait to explore the area in daylight.  Finally, we came to the hazy neon glow of a sign saying “Shanti” and I tip my driver well—I wouldn’t have gotten here without him.

The man at the reception desk looks less than enthused to have another customer to deal with, but his mood may also have something to do with the loud explosion and smoke that came from an electrical box of some kind when I entered.  I bend 90 degrees to climb the steep stairs so my pack doesn’t pull me over backwards and drop my gear in my room before checking out the rooftop restaurant.  It’s romantic—looking out over the river, purple walls, rows of red lights, someone strumming Radiohead’s “Karma Police” on a guitar.

Okay, I’m back to wishing I were traveling with a friend, though.  I’m trying to find a seat at a welcoming looking table (or, rather, a table with welcoming looking people at it).  It seems like everyone here is with a group and there isn’t room for one more (except for that table of hippies that probably aren’t smoking regular tobacco and I am so not looking for that tonight).  A lot of the people up here seem really tired.  I’m guessing they’ve either just arrived or have just finished another long day of simply existing in India.  Also, there’s an inordinately large number of cute guys on this roof…but I’m not looking for that tonight, either, so moving on. 

I do appreciate that the booth nearby has a sign saying “Full Fledged Money Changer”, proving my hotel’s devotion to the financial business is greater than its half-hearted “mostly fledged” competitors.

I ended up sitting at a table by myself near the door and when two girls came in looking like they were in the same conundrum I said they were welcome to use my table.  And that’s how I met Sally and Emma, two Brits on their way around Africa and India and moving on to Asia.  Hopefully we’ll meet up for the free boat trip tomorrow evening and can spend a little time together.  But I leave them to their dinner because I’m utterly exhausted, that is until I pick up the book Twilight again and read until about 12:30.  But seriously, how many times can this chick get lost in Edward’s eyes?